Sunday, September 11, 2005

if only we could...

the past month especially the last couple of weeks has been a crazy one... MY GOODNESS ITS WORSE THAN CRAZY!!!! some times i just wonder why i ended up in APIIT... but if not for it i wouldn't have met angel.... hehehe.... but as of late.. we've been pilled with projects... first the final year project.. then bpr... then pmmt... then dwa... then dsap... in that few days of that week was NUTS! one after another... now that all the projects are over... we are in the suspense of having to wait for our presentation schedules... its like waiting to strike the lottery i tell you and true enough mine comes... this coming monday at 4pm... if only u can see wat i look like right now... its not like in the picture you see now...

but i am worried... there is so much i have not prepared and i am afraid that i might mess it up... which i know i would eventually knowing that stupid sanath will screw me 100% in the presentations... i have no idea what the hell is his problem especially since he was the one who approved the project... i just can't wait to get this over wif... work on angel's system then prepare for the exams... EXAMS! i just wonder how to study for it also... starts 19 then 21 straight to 23... one after another... i have no idea why they are rushing our intake.

my sweet angel is sleeping every so peacefully now.. hugging the pink hippo i bought her for valentines day. why am i up? can't really sleep... i have so much that i want to get off my chest but it's not working.. i just can't get myself to just write it all out... like how i used to back then in all those notebooks. i do miss writing a lot. it used to help me get over things and ask questions to myself why certain things happen the way they do.

listening to Class 95 FM online from singapore... man a lot of classic songs which i've not heard for a long time now. tze ting.. if you ever read this blog HI :) not even sure if you still do or not. how have u been? its crazy over here for me... oh sorry for all the late nite sms'es to ya... it was really urgent and it still is. can't wait to grad and get out of studying soon. i feel like a dog on a leash. haha.. sorry i couldn't resist... that's ricky.. angel's dog... this dog is seriously restless and loves to play.. unfortunately i am afraid of him and i think he can sense it some times... but he shook my hand a couple days ago... haha that was scary. i miss singapore. should go back there soon with angel at the end of the year before heading back to brunei. then can meet ya ting ting! hehehe....

I HATE APIIT! if only i took the time to update the other blog i made to #$#%# about apiit... oh angel just flinched... i miss my quality times... i miss myself... i miss being care free... i miss being young... i miss angel... i miss my sleep...

some one once said.. it will be all worth it... yeah rite... if i ever find who this some one is i will beat the living crap out of them. i know this post isn't constructive but really my mind is a blank. before i started to write this one i had so much i want to blurt and write.. then nothing.. nothing at all came out from my mind to fingers... maybe tomolo one more post before i head home...

good nite

1 comment:

angel said...

hahaha ... u stole my dog dog picture ... will show 'him' 2moro !!! ngek ngek !!! good luck in ur coming presentation, which is 2moro!!! good luck !!!